asmarus

Every time you message me, my heart sinks to my feet. From there it asks if it's alright if it may cease to beat. You'd think that I would find a way to pass by you on the street Without turning to look back at you, fighting remembrance bittersweet. I wish I could just make it disappear, let all of it go. I've asked the memories to stay away and just leave me alone. But I'm not one who has ever been very good at leaving home. So trying to escape only somehow drags me back into your zone. I promised myself I wouldn't answer, I swore it through my tears. Kept silence, and managed not to talk to you for years. And then you found some things th

They said we were a match made in heaven.  I believed them. But, goodness, ungracious, hot, hot hell… We sure did wear the underworld well. I never meant to be imperfect in your eyes. Did not once wish for those tears you shed. I knew that it was my fault. And I am not sure there are words to describe the way it felt, except to try and explain how many pieces of me I lost to each of your fallen teardrops. I still lie awake at night and wonder what it would take to get back to where I lost you, and stop that from occurring. Still, I spend (or rather, waste) hours on the entertainment of the idea that we were ever any good for each other.

Every man needs to be wanted, and wants to be needed. These are basic human desires. However, I've come to feel as if they are among the most difficult to achieve. You see, everybody has a different formula for happiness. Mine resides in you. Without you, I am nothing. With you, I have everything. My soul operates this way. I didn't choose it. My hear is the sort that requires a keeper. A watcher, if you will. Without someone to look out for my best interests, I am easily mistaken. Without someone's feelings to consider, my own find no solace. It wasn't intentional that I became this way...I'm only as human as the next alien. But who's gonna

I saw you there. A spark of light in all of my night, I found you. An angel's halo in the blackness of my darkness of my demons; I held you close for years that became only a blink of time in this painfully long eternity. And oh, how I look at those memories we wrote on little pieces of paper. So many memories, but nowhere near enough confetti to rebuild a single dead tree. It was then that I realized, you would never return. So I tried to call out to you...Praying the echoes of my voice would bounce off enough objects to reverberate into your headspace. I begged the universe to stop you on your axis just long enough to catch a glimpse of me

Desperate Thriving and striving, driving for the things that are required. Inspired, aspiring towards life with the taste acquired. A fire inside that burns without relent… Although he feels entirely exhumed and spent. Anger rises, temper bubbling over while we search for success. Obsessed with the need for weight to be lifted from the chest. To fears and temptations, he becomes so quickly to succumb. Frustrated past the point of feeling, until he's numb. Broken, like everything around him has been forgotten. Unspoken hatred dwells inside the man who grows rotten. Nothing seems to help, no steps forward without repercussion… Lost

The Straight and Narrow Stay true to what you are, tell people what you feel. Live by what you say and do. That's what makes you real. I may seem too poetic or simple, but it's my philosophy. No matter the impression, no one can say I wasn't me. Be prepared to give and take advice, friendship, and help. I do not feel one can go wrong, if they are themselves. Never take rumor seriously, don't go by what you heard. Do not be a liar, or there will be no meaning to your word. Even though we can get angry, refrain from holding grudge. Keep in mind that for everyone, God will be the judge. Love your friends and family, steer them clear o

Without You, I am Not Me Every moment spent without you, another test upon my sanity. If you ever leave me, it will be a bitter calamity. When my skies are clouded, only you could be my sun. Even when I’m surrounded, I will only ask for one. Sometimes when I’m alone, I have to fight back shedding tears. Did you know that losing you tops my long list of fears? Nothing would even seem right, if I were to be without you. In fact if I didn’t have you, I’m not quite sure what I’d do. I know some moments with me can tend to get a bit hairy… But even a second without your love is overwhelming and scary. I wil

Infernally Eternal Whenever I’m thinking of you, it causes my heart to pound. Wishing that I were holding you, keeping you safe and sound. Wanting to be your shoulder to cry on and to lean… Holding you in high esteem, because you are my queen. When times are touch and I get sad, my spirits get so dark. I think of how you told me that we’ve still got a special spark. Only hoping when I get to you, that it’s not too late. Forever means eternity, because you are my soul’s mate. I’ll never fake anything to you, I will never be a fraud, Because us coming together, I feel was an act of God. You make me feel

Holding on to Your Love Simple words are never enough to let you know I am in love. But all that words that I could say will present themselves in their own way. Because with you, everything is right; just lying down aside you at night. It makes me want to never leave, quietly listening to you breathe. So here are my lines, hold them true. Standing proof that I love you. One day at your side is a day withheld in pride. Living emotions deep inside, you’re all I have to confide. I feel it forming inside of me, festering hate and tension. Raging, building, constructing with every minute of detention. My thoughts are clouded, I can

Slipping, Falling, Praying Another night kept awake, wishing that I were with you. It’s getting to the point where I don’t know what to do. All I know is that I have to be real and keep it true. But it’s so hard to smile when your whole world is blue. I spend every second of the day wishing, hoping, pining. Trying not to hide behind these made-up silver linings. I know half the time it seems my poems are just my whining. But it’s so hard to think positive, when all my thoughts are undermining. Every day wasted in lockdown makes me feel that much sadder. Every day I don’t hear you voice is only making me madd